My Little Voice Within

I felt like I had hit rock bottom in my life. I felt completely discouraged, defeated and powerless about the decisions and choices I was faced with and it felt like I was trying to make sense and organization out of a tornado that had just taken everything familiar and secure in my life and blew it away.

More so, I felt like there was a giant hole in the center of my invisible body; I walked around absent mindedly and came into contact with many important friends and family members. They couldn’t see me, nor hear me, but I could feel them. I felt all of their fears, stress, problems and dreams crash through me like white water rapids. Every inch of my entire being had been consumed with mental and physical pain.

It wasn’t until I heard Christina Aguilera’s song “The Voice Within.” that made me realize how much this song had a particular impact on my life and the way that I live. Personally, I’ve never been a big of her music but for some reason this seems to be the song I keep coming back to for any occasion whether it’s to cheer me up, calm me down or bring me back to re live certain memories. There are only a few instruments that I can identify which are the piano, and the symbols. The piano plays a soft, sweet and slow melody that almost resembles church music. The momentum of Christina’s voice gives the song power, meaning and strength. She makes the song come alive with her down to earth lyrics. She says “When there’s no one else, look inside yourself, like your oldest friend just trust the voice within then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way, you’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within.” Just as Watts, Christina expresses an idea about life through her lyrics.

I believe that this song is very important because it very relatable. It doesn’t matter your age, ethnicity, values, goals, beliefs etc. The song discusses how anyone who has ever felt stress, discouragement, fear or isolation in their life can find a “voice” within them that will provide strength and guidance in making decisions in their life. Metaphorically this represents our ability to believe in ourselves and to believe that we are capable of anything we set our minds to. Also, that we have to trust ourselves to have control over the decisions we make, whether they are right or wrong they map the road which we walk our journey on. We are all artists in life, how we express ourselves varies from each individual. Some may live life as dancers, painters, architects, scientists, mothers, farmers, teachers etc. but at the end of the day everyone has to make decisions regarding their life. Every decision that we make is responsible for an affect on who we are as a person and how we learn and behave.

In addition, I found that this video really helped me deal with the problems in my life. I was feeling overwhelmed by all of the stresses and concerns that I felt I needed to be responsible for other people. I had no feeling of stability or control and I was loosing hope in myself as well as the world. I really like the video because it has such a real simplistic feeling to it. There is something so human, vulnerable and personal about it that I find comforting. The video is inspiring, beautiful and freeing.

I live my life with security knowing that at the end of the day even if I’m alone I can rely on myself to make decisions. I live my life knowing that there isn’t anyone who can prepare me for how hard life is. It isn’t something can be described, taught or learned by anyone other than yourself. There’s no book or rules that can help prepare us for the types of decisions we will have to face but there is that little voice within us that can help us make those decisions confidently. Nobody should feel alone in life, we are all experiencing the same things in one way or another.

After hearing the song “Voices Within” for the first time I felt like I was watching movie of my own life playing in slow motion in my head. Every important person, event, and memory that had a significant meaning to me consumed my mind and body. It was as if I was experiencing an outer body experience. I was watching myself spinning in a chair and watching my entire twenty two years of life un fold in front of my eyes. The more the song played, the louder it seemed to get and the more uniform my thoughts became to be. In addition, I felt this overwhelming sense of freedom and confidence. It was like a giant weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I could literally fly off the ground at any moment.